Testimony Tuesday: Are You There, God? It’s Me, Taylor

Okay, so that post title is a little dramatic, and to be honest, I never read the book it’s based on (or if I did, it was a long, long time ago and I can’t quite recall). But that’s not the point.

The point is, sometimes, it’s really, really hard to hear the Father. Whether that’s because we just aren’t listening, or because the world is just too loud… sometimes, it’s difficult to focus.

Again, this is an inherent part of being a sinful human, and we are so blessed that our Lord doesn’t fret or condemn when we can’t hear Him properly. Instead, He just keeps speaking to us, guiding us, being beside us, even when we aren’t equipped to see His hand in things.

Which is exactly where another key element in a strong relationship with God comes in… trust.

Now, I’ve spoken and written and ranted on before about how trust is one my biggest demons sometimes – or rather, how doubt is. And all of that is still true. I will likely wrangle with the sin of doubt for my entire life. Again, an unfortunate side effect of being human.

In the past few weeks, I’ve become more comfortable with the idea of blindness; more specifically, blindness in trust. I can feel, so strongly, the Lord calling me to trust him even in moments where my human sight can’t see, where my mortal ears can’t hear, where my doubt would usually otherwise overcome me. Sure, blind trust is uncomfortable and reckless… but so is the Father’s love.

We owe Him the same recklessness that He shows us each and every moment of each and every single day.

I am so unspeakably grateful for His gracious, blind trust in me, so why would I not offer Him the same in return? Besides, being able to let go of my uncertainties and trust that He is always there, above the noise, is a comfort and warmth so great, it overwhelms any discomfort that my sinful doubt might bring.

Thank you, Father, for trusting me to trust in You. Thank You for standing beside me even when I cannot see You. Thank You for speaking to me and guiding me when my ears cannot hear above the noise. Thank You for never letting go of me, even when I question if You have. Amen.

Have I not commanded you?
Be strong and courageous.
Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed,
for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
— Joshua 1:9

One thought on “Testimony Tuesday: Are You There, God? It’s Me, Taylor

  1. I JUST read this verse TODAY! How hard it was for Joshua to stand alone (besides Caleb) and believe in God despite the thousands of different opinions around and the fear of facing tremendous enemies! Tks for sharing!

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