Well, guys, I’ve undergone a transformation.
Okay, that’s a little dramatic. All that’s really changed is my blog – its look, its feel, and its direction. The change is resulting from a shift in my perspective lately, on blogging, on faith, and on life in general.
Now, if you would like the TL;DR version of this blog post: I’m ravamping my blog, and discontinuing my “blogger/food/whatever the heck it was” Instagram. I’m keeping the blogging platform and my personal Insta and simplifying my presence, both on social media and in real life.
If you want the explanation, read on:
Basically: I feel like I was trying too hard.
I recently posted about how I felt like I was trying to make this blog into something its not, and how, by extension, I was trying to make myself into a fashionista or a foodie or whatever the heck I was going for there. The truth is, I may be a little bit of a foodie, I’m hardly a fashionista (I say as I write this wearing a t-shirt and old cutoffs with my hair in a horrendously messy ponytail – and yes, I left the house like this). I’m a writer at heart with a horrendous habit of not finishing anything I write, this blog included.
I think that was because my heart wasn’t in it. I didn’t want to show off my fashion skills, partly because I have very few, and I didn’t want to lug around a camera and photograph everything I eat (and, beyond that, it’s not the healthiest habit I’ve ever developed, but that’s a story for another day).
I just want to write. I want to think more deeply about things, I want to explore my faith, and I want to use this platform to express those little blurbs of thought that come from the roots of such things.
Additionally, I felt scattered.
I felt like by trying to put on this facade of being some put-together blogger, I was being untrue to where I’m at in life right now. I’m not saying I’m a mess; in fact, I’m quite aware that for someone my age I have my life pretty well managed. I’ve got a job I love, I’ve got the best friends in the world (all around the world), I’ve got a family that I would literally do anything for, I’ve got a guy who shows me more about life and love than I ever could have imagined, I’ve got my own space, and I’ve got a cute and cuddly kitty to enjoy it all with. God has been pretty great thus far – but I’m also still just figuring some things out.
I want to simplify my life. I want to focus on what’s most important and I want to experience every ounce of joy that life has to offer. That’s hard to do when I’m so focused on capturing the perfect Insta-shot of my breakfast
Don’t get me wrong – I still love food, and I still love taking pictures of it. But having an entire social media presence dedicated to that (and to random OOTD’s when I felt particularly cute), is exhausting, and I’m awful at being consistent about it. I’d rather consolidate that presence into one place where I can show all the bursts of joy in my life that I happen to catch a photo of, whether that’s brunch with my best friend or a beautiful Arizona cotton candy sky. As such, I’m going to stop using my twentysomethingtaylor Insta account. If you want to keep up with my journey, feel free to follow me on my personal: heyyytaylor. But I’ll warn you now: there’s a lot less food and a lot more of people. (That’s also a pretty good testament to how I’m aiming to direct my life lately, too.)
Now, if you’ve been a loyal reader of mine at all (do I even have those?), you’ve probably noticed that my last few posts have been very faith-oriented. This whole thing is probably a post for another day, but I’ve been so blessed with the opportunity to dive back into my faith these past few weeks, and into serving my church and the Lord. I kind of drifted for a month or so at the beginning of the year, for a lot of reasons, but then I just kind of had this wake up call. Running away from the Lord because I was questioning why He was putting certain hardships in my path wasn’t the answer – that’s when I’m supposed to run towards Him, full speed ahead.
That realization is also a lot of why I’ve decided to redirect this blog more towards being a platform of personal reflection.
Maybe I’ll lose “readers” (LOL) because of this. But that’s not really what I’m aiming for.
I just want to write. Reflect. Pause. And appreciate.
I’ve been running through life since I was born, seven minutes after seven. Now I just want to take every chance I get to appreciate the little things, the big thoughts, and the overall journey.
I hope you’ll join me.